weightloss

Lately I have been incorporating daily exersise into my everyday routine. It makes me feel good but I still don't feel thin. I don't know if I will ever feel thin. But now I am thinking that maybe I'm not seeing or feeling myself as getting thinner, because I don't want to feel thin or feel that I'm losing weight.
I like to workout vigorously for a short amount of time everyday, multiple times throughout the day, three to five times per day, and sometimes one time.
But if I just workout once, I make it muliple workouts all together, one workout after another, without taking any breaks.
And most important of all I am not over eating.

weight loss

According to my family, I have been losing weight, only I don't think that I have lost any weight. As a matter of fact I think I have been gaining weight. Even though I have been eating less for the most part, and I have been working out. But I need to work out more. I need to keep on increasing my workout, and really getting my heart pumped up and build up my resitence. I need to really push myself  to my limit, I need to lose weight, and be able to see that I have lost weight. because right now I feel fat and over weight, dispite being told by my mom and sister that I have been losing weight, and even my cousin has said the same thing. But she doesn't count, because I hadn't seen her in a year.
But I've been visiting my family for the past month now, and they've seen me everyday, so they can clearly see that I've lost weight, and they aren't the ones to sugar coat things, or tell me that I've lost weight if I haven't lost weight.
So I still don't get why I still feel so fat.
Which doesn't explain why I had an entire small bag of twists, low fat at that. I don't know why I do crazy things.
Personally I think it's my period, I always get huge cravings when it's that time of the month.
or nearing that time of the month.

new plan

I am proud to annouce that I have stopped eating chips. As a matter of fact I didn't have any chips yesterday, and I didn't have any chips when my mom offered me some of her sea salt flavored chips, I told her that I have resolved not to have any more chips, no matter what kind. I am drinking water, in place of having chips, right now, to be honest, with who ever reads this, I am having a bad craving for chips right now, but I am going to be stronger than my cravings.

Yesterday, I did, two, rounds of workouts, even thought it was a tired day for me, because it was the first day, of me going without chips, and usually, when we have chips I have to have chips. We have a box of chips in the pantry, and I had my last bag of chips on Saturday. But only one bag, and no seconds, I didn't have any chips yesterday, and today, I plan on doing the same, not eating chips, and working out.

I am not going to count how long I am going to workout I am just going to workout every three to four hours in the day, doing a hundred repetion of each workout that I do.

I have been a bit lazy when it comes to working out. I really need to get back into it. Working out full force that is. working out till my muscles ache. then and only then will I know that I have done a real workout. I am thinking to start that from today, this morning to be precisie. I really want to go back thinner and not fatter.
When it comes to food, I find I do most of my eating after midnight, but then I make up for it, by not hording food throughout the day.
I know I need to have a better scedule.
I know that I need to eat better. As in eliminate, fast food, candy, and chips. and white bread for the most part,
but especially, fried foods, sweet or salty,
and candies, low fat, low sugar, no sugar, all of that is included.
I need to just eat healthy and workout.

I have not been binge eating like i usually do when i come to visit my family over here. I have been incorpating some workouts into my day here and there. so far i have completed one week, of my three week to a month visit.

I kept my word with myself and the blogger world about going on the treadmill for an hour at four, and I plan on going on the treadmill today at four, for an hour. I also made sure not to binge eat at all. I didn't even binge on the luncheon meat. Sure I had a lot of it, but it was a lesser amount than I had on friday or Saturday, and I just had one serving.
Today I had ramen noodles for breakfast, with hamburgers and cheese----Hamburgers without the bread, or mayoniese.
and then I had black tea with the meal, and some black tea after the meal.
I haven't planned what I am going to have for lunch, but it's going to be a small amount of whatever is in the kitchen.

food and binges. not good.

Friday and Saturday were not good days for me. I haven't been on the treadmill sense, last Thursday. I need to go back on the treadmill starting from tonight, or this afternoon at four. which I might make into my new exersise time.
It's not enough for me just to workout on the treadmill for an hour five days a week, I also need to stop binge eating.
I just binged on Friday and Saturday.
Because I opened this package of luncheon meat, which goes bad pretty fast, so i feel that i need to eat as much of it as i can, and then i can go and have a ton of fat burners, like, black coffee and tea.

Before getting my period I had been going on the treadmill five days a week for an order. I plan on going back to that after my period.
I have three meals a day and i am no longer binge eating. for the longest time (two weeks) i had been binge eating but not anymore, i have stopped that. hopefully for good this time.

workout thoughts

Yesterday I went on the treadmill for two hours: One hour in the morning, and another hour, at ten at night.
At first I was just going to go on for an hour, and then ten pm rolled around, and I was bored, so I decided to go on the treadmill for another hour.

today I haven't gone on the treadmill yet. I'm not even sure I'll go on the treadmill today.
I might do, some high intensity workouts, using just my body. Sense I went on the treadmill yesterday, and I'm fasting anyway, or I might do both, but leave the treadmill for tonigh. I haven't decided yet.

new weight loss plan

Last night I went on the treadmill for two hours, I walked for a striaght hour before taking a water break. and then from then every ten minutes, I took small water breaks. I watched, The Good Guy's, Gary Unmarried, Better off Ted, and most of Lie to me.

Tonight I plan on going on at nine, while watching, Brother's and Sisters.

I increased the speed to six point five, in the end, I want to increase it, at eight point five. While keeping at two hours, five days a week.

It's not going to be easy to go on the treadmill five days a week, for two hours, but it's something that I need to do, if I want to lose weight. And I want to lose weight.

new plan

This week I plan on going on the treadmill, everyday---saturday through wendsday, taking thursday and friday, as a break.

I'm going to spilt into a total of six, twenty minute intervals, I plan on doing three twenty intervals at four, and then another three twenty intervals at nine.

a journey to weigh loss

I made a green soup yesterday, (blended vegetables, with some seasonings, and chicken cubes.) I had that for supper last night, with a microwaved potato.  Earlier, I had oatmeal.

This morning, I had six digestives, and then this afternoon, I had oatmeal again, for lunch, for supper, I'm planning on having the same thing I had for supper last night.

I went on the treadmill for two hours yesterday. Tonight I plan on going on the treadmill, probably not for two hours, probably, just for an hour today, at nine, while watching Castle, and then going back on tomorrow for two hours, while watching Army wifes.

I am taking  a break from the treadmill today, and goinf back on tomorrow, and starting from tomorrow morning, I'm going to go on every morning, after a light breakfast, every morning. That way, I can burn, the same or close to the same amount of calories, everyday.

Ultimetially, I think that walking on the treadmill, for two hours, is easier, than going on for four, thirty, minute intervals. Which ultimely takes longer, than just going on the treadmill for the two hours. which I've been going on, every other day, sense the Friday, before last.

I am now drinking tea, and I have plans on going on the treadmill this morning, instead of this afternoon or this evening. Sense I ate an hour after midnight, I should be able to go on the treadmill, at around nine this morning. and later in the day, I'll have fresh foods.

I went on the treadmill for two hours yesterday, while eating a all vegetable diet. which I plan on contiuing today----the day, I'm not going to be going on the treadmill, so that way, I keep my caloric intake the same.

I went on the treadmill for two hours yesterday, from nine, eleven, pm. Which felt good, I'm glad I have the treadmill facing the televiison, that way, I'm not focused on the timer, and am focused instead on what's on the television, which is a great distraction. I suppose I could also read, at the speed. if there's nothing interesting on.

Soon it's going to be Ramadan, and I plan on contiuing with my workouts during this month. God willing, and keeping with my healthy eating.

Speaking of which I should only bake my potato's.

Today, I had a potato----cooked with one spoon of vegetable oil.  a tomato, and some watermellon, and three digestives, (those I had for breakfast)

workout plan

Today's plan is to go on the treadmill for two hours. I'm thinking to go, on from six to eight, or from nine to eleven, I haven't decided, most likely, I'll be going on from, six, to eight, while watching, Grey's anatomy, The Doctors, and a little bit of extreme chef.

I had vegetables for lunch today, so I'm all ready, to go on the treadmill. I'll have my supper, afterwards. Grape leaves----which I prepared, without any oil whatsoever.

I went on the treadmill for two hours, while watching master chef Junior----(two episodes) and a little bit of another show, to complete the last twenty minutes remaining, after the first two episodes finished. I felt good afterwards, and had an easier time falling asleep. So I'm thinking to make nine pm, my new work out time.
of course it's not written in stone, I can workout any time---after I've had something to eat. Of course not too much to eat, just enough, so that I'm not fainting while on the treadmill, or getting too out of breath, and getting too tired, and what not.

I am still planning on going on the treadmill at nine pm tonight, while watching Master Chef Australia, it's going to be a double bill, so I should be getting about sixty minutes of walking, , if not more. I'll take small breaks during commericals, to drink, and then go back on----actually I stay on, and have the water next to me, so I just pause the treadmill, drink some water, and then contiue walking. After my period, I'll get to jogging, and then build up to running. for now, I will stick to walking for long distances. 

I had my lunch already, and breakfast, supper, is going to be fruit and vegetables. a salad of sorts.

thoughts

So far I've been doing good when it comes to eating----I'm not stuffing my face that's for sure---even though, it's my period, I've been drinking a lot of tea and water, and eating a lot of fruit. I just had banna, milk for supper last night. but then I had some rice, at midnight----I made the rice, without adding any oil though, and it's the healthy rice, so I should be fine. plus today, is my cleaning, and laundry day, so there will be plenty of walking around, and cleaning, and then there's the dishes that always need to be washed, so if I don't go on the treadmill, I know I'll still have burned a lot of calories. Sense I'm going to do a complete, and total, clean up of the apartment---later today.

To be honest I didn't go on the treadmill, I'm thinking to skip the treadmill during my period---safe for the first day----it's not so bad, the first day---the cramps tend to get worse, during the middle of the day. but alas, the home needs to be cleaned. though if my cramps, are too bad, then I'll just work slowly, given that I'm going to be cleaning the home tomorrow, I might as well go on the treadmill to, I mean it's not like I have anything else today, plus I would be burning twice the amount of calories.
so yeah, I will go on the treadmill, while watching two episodes of master chef junior.

Last night---(it's midnight now) I went on the treadmill for two hours, I went on while watching Drop dead Diva on MBC4. At first I was going to just go on for fifty minutes, and then two twenty five minute intervals, but then, I changed my mind. I didn't run, or jog, just walked at a comfortable pace. Considering it was the first night of my period, I beleive that I did good. I know that losing weight, takes daily dedections. I'm now glad that my husband didn't get me that cake of pepsi, I've asked for. Though I am still craving diet coke, one of these days I'll ask him to get me a pack. Anyway, or maybe not. Anyway, I'm going to go on the treadmill every other day, for two hours, and then every other day for forty five minutes. and take every, alternate, thursday, or friday off.

my journey to weight loss

Today I have a plan to go on the treadmill for a total of a hundred minutes:  I'm going to do it in three intervals, one fifty minute interval and two twenty five minute interval.

I have had my breakfast already, and so after I have my tea, while watching gossip girl, and then pray, I'm going to go on for fifty minutes, at a sensible speed. meaning a speed I can handle without, getting out of breath, and having to grasp on to the handle bars.

today I went on the treadmill for a total of a hundred minutes. I am proud of my self, for being able to accomplish that, yesterday, I only worked out for seventy five minutes---in three intervals, today, it was three intervals.

weight

Every other day I go on the treadmill for a hundred minutes, I do four 25 minute internavals.  at first I was just adding fifteen minutes a day to my workout on the treadmill and then I moved onto a hundred minutes, which is ten minutes more then what I was doing last week. I want to do, two hours, so I need to do twenty more minutes, but that will be for next month, so this month it's going to be a hundred minutes, while watching what I eat, and not eating too much. because there is no need to workout if I'm going to over eat.
I still don't feel like I'm losing weight, but I have to contiue with it.

Today wasn't a good day---but I have to own up to it----I had six fried pototos, six crackers and two jars of Mushrooms-----with Garlic and Olive oil-----my attempt at being healthy------ I have just finished my second cup of coffee. I was planning on going on the treadmill----but now I have dedecided I'm going to go on in the morning---but I will do floor workouts tonight though. I have to go on first thing in the morning for thirty minutes though----I heard that working out for thirty minutes in the morning, helps to speed up your metobolism. Coffee helps in that----I don't feel like eating afterwards----I'm glad---I like it again. Coffee has helped me lose so much weight in the past. And I hope it works again.

getting there

Today I ate less for breakfast which is good. I am now drinking Black tea, I have just one tea bag of Green Tea left. That I want to save for later. I am craving apple tea, I think I will have a cup of apple tea, blended with black tea. Today I go on the treadmill for thirty minutes, I have decided to add ten minutes every week. So that my body doesn't get used to going on for twenty minutes. I am going to keep the speed the same though, just for the time being, and then I will ad more to it, as the days go along. I will also be doing some floor workouts as well. My period should be starting soon, but I am not going to let that get in my way of health eating, for the most part, and working out. I am now drinking apple tea mixed with black tea.

For the most part I have been working out everday---if not on the treadmill---which I do, Sundays, Mondays,Tuesdays, I do workout mat, workouts (workouts on the mat) almost everyday, every morning, and evening, and sometimes even afternoon. I don't have anything to eat after four in the afternoon. So I can ensure I am burning enough calories through the day. Usually I don't workout during the weekends because that is when I do the house cleaning which is a workout in of itself. I am watching the amount of foods I eat. I am determinded to stick with my workout plan, even while on my period. A period should be an excuse to laze around getting fat. Which is what usually happens. Plus working out does help with the cramps. so that way I can kill two birds with one stone. My weakness is fried potatoes, I must stop having fried potatos, from now on they will be boiled=====in water, not oil. I go on the treadmill for twenty minutes and do, three sets of five to ten minute workouts, two, to three times a day. while drinking plenty of fat burners like tea, and coffee.

I'm back to go on the treadmill, I got back to going on the treadmill on Sunday at four in the afternoon. Yesterday I went on the treadmill at seven. The difference between going on the treadmill yesterday and the day before, was that I over ate on sunday, I ate less yesterday, and today, I ate about the same as yesterday, a little less. Sense I'm not going to be having any crackers for lunch, just vegetables. My cut off time for food is four. and I don't eat anything after I work out. I didn't do any morning workouts, so I'll make up for it by doing some workouts---after the afternoon prayer.

I need to do my own food shopping, so I can get all the healthy foods that I want. It's essential that I do my own shopping, because I can find all the ingridents that I need in one place. This week I want to get back to working out everyday---safe for the weekend, I take a break on the weekend. Meaning I need to consume less calories during the weekend. Or should I keep my calorie intake the same? no that doesn't make sense to eat the same amount of calories I eat during the week when I am working out as on the weekend when I'm not working out. I don't mean that I am going to be eating while working out. I mean it doesn't make sense for me to eat the same amount of calories on the weekends as I eat in during the week. Because i'll be working out during the week, plus cleaning, and then on the weekend I'll only be cleaning, but not working out. So I will lessen my calories. I no longer eat any time of fast food, cakes, cookies, doughnuts, pizza.

tonight I am going to go on the treadmill for about twenty minutes, followed by one hundred sit ups rather crunches, and some other workouts. I did well food wise---white starches and more white starches, they are my addiction. I know I have to kick this bad habit. at least I burned some calories when I woke up, cleaning. but cleaning alone isn't going to be enough. I found this really interesting blog about weight loss, which is written by a man, who was once over weight, but then decided that he didn't want to be over weight anymore, so he changed his life style. Seriously next time I need food in the home, I am going to ask my husband if he can just drop me off in the grocery store and I will pick out my own food. Why is that men say, they want us to lose weight, and yet, they get WHITE starches? I honestly don't understand that. I don't understand that one bit.

I haven't worked out in the conventially sense of the word, but I have been moving around a lot, standing and looking out the kitchen window a lot, and cleaning, cleaning, laundry, and floor cleaning, yesterday i cleaned the bedroom floor, and did some laundry, washed the dishes---that's a given. the dishes need to be washed every single day. and did some laundry. so it's probably good that i don't do any working out on weekends as they are reserved for cleaning, and the rest of week, can be reserved for working out. I had a reasonable breakfast, some vegetable flavored crackers and some instant noodles---i figure it's best to have them in the morning. I am proud of myself, even though I stayed up till after midnight, I didn't eat anything. it probably helped that I had my supper at nine.

It has been about a week, sense I have eaten anything at midnight. if i am awake till midnight i usually just go to bed and read till i get tired. I think not eating at midnight really makes a difference. Because i am not taking in extra calories, and I tend to over eat at midnight, because I figure I have the whole day ahead of me to burn off the calories. I have a pack of Oreo cookies in the cupboard, which I shall not touch, for health reasons moreso than calorie reasons. for some reason, my body just doesn't react them to well. and I know it's the cookies and not anything else, because i did a little experiement. For the past day or so I have been starting my day, with a cup of tea. I no longer add anything with my tea, no honey, no sugar, not that I have any to start with, well except those calorie free sugars, i forgot what they are called, but i never use them anyway. i am strongly considering getting back to working out today. i know i keep on saying that. I just need to do it, right after breakfast I'm going to do some workouts, it doesn't have to be anything too intense, just something to get me back in the workout mode.

Aside from washing and cleaning up I haven't done any working out. Anyway, I did well with lunch though, because most of my lunch, consisted of fibre rich foods, which should keep me from over eating at dinner. so i think it will be just fine for me to have salad for dinner and perhaps some tuna fish, if i have any left.

I know that I shouldn't have any refined foods, but when that's all you have in the home. Aside from some lettuce and carrots, and I don't know about you, but lettuce and carrots make me hungry for real food. So I will it, but just eat less of it, and have for breakfast as opposed for supper. And then I have green tea, till lunch time, and keep active. When I go food shopping again, I will be sure to get healthy non refined things that I can eat with comfort. I am preparing to get back into work out mode. it's very difficult---but doable---for me to get myself back to workout mode. Now I don't have any excuses not to get back to working out. I don't have the excuse of not working out in the morning---after I've done everything that needs to be taken care of course. I don't have the excuse to stuff my face with chocolate. I don't have any excuse not to get up and do some workouts. A little bit of working out everyday, really does make a difference. The problem with me, is I will set a high goal for myself, and I'll keep it going for a few days but then I get bored with it, and retreat back to my old ways. So every single day, I have to do something, I don't have to go on the treadmill everyday, that can be something I do six days a week, three consective days and then I take a break and then go back on for another set of three consective days (I just need to get to that) and every morning, afternoon and evening, I do some simple workouts. That added with being careful of the amount of food that eat should make a difference.

I messed up, I completely messed up. Note to self :Stop messing up. you need to lose weight. you need to be healthy. you cannot lose weight and be healthy if you are going to mess up. I am correcting that right now by drinking four no lets make it eight cups of green tea, followed by eight cups of black tea, and some black coffee, and later, ice cold water, and five hundred legs lifts and jogging in place for the count of five hundred, and whatever other mat workout. I know that I usually wait until I have finished my period before I go back to working out, but drastic times call for drastic measures. if I don't watch out I'm going to get a double chin, and that's never attractive. I don't understand obese people think that they are attractive and call themselves curvy.

plan

This morning I had whole wheat special K and with full fat milk (it's the only kind in the home right now) and two cups of water, one cup before and one cup after. For lunch I'm planning on having some salad and I don't know what else. I'll figure it out later when I'm getting ready to have lunch. Pretty soon I'll be going back to working out. I need to be sure that I have lunch at a decent time, so that I don't end up mixing with supper. Because if I do that, I'll end up overeating. I suppose I could have another bowl of special K for supper.

It's morning according to my time, I don't know how to fix the blog timer, anyway, I haven't had anything to eat sense yesterday afternoon. I thought a bit about eating some salad, or chocoloate for dinner. I figured I messed up all ready I might as well go ahead and eat some more chocolate. But Thankfully I was just too tired to eat and brush my teeth afterwards. That I just went to bed. At around eight thirty. These nights I tend to get tired at that time. Which I supppose is a good thing because it keeps me from grazing on food at midnight, like I used to do. Which I have stopped doing. in the long run I think it will be better. I know why I ate so much yesterday, because I spent the last two days starving myself, not out of choice, but out of need. I cannot eat during the first two days of my period, the cramps are just too much. And so I just have tea, tea helps me a lot. anyway, I'll have to work off the extra calories at the end of the week.

This is just so embarassing but I have to be accountable for my eating habits. I ate too much today for lunch. I ate from twelve in the afternoon till about one in the afternoon. First I had salad---that was fine, and I should have stopped at the salad, but then I had crackers, more chocolate, and instant noodles. What was I think. Though I should cut myself some slack, due to period hormones. My husband is constanly telling me that I've gained weight right after my period. and this time its not going to be any different. Well I want it to be different, I want him to say that I've lost weight once my period hasn't finished. But at the rate I'm going it's not going to happen. So I have got to skip supper tonight, even though I am not one to skip meals, so I am just going to have salad, and that is all, and then I will do my best to do better tomorrow.

I need to stop over eating. I'm doing better. I have three meals a day and no more then that. Next is to get back into working out. I've already mentioned about this before, in a previous post so I'm not going to repeat myself. what really gets on my nerves about myself, is that I'll start something, eating healthy, and working out and then suddenly I stop I get lazy, I get into a fitness kick and then that fitness kick dies out. I need to stop getting offended if anyone calls me fat, they are just calling it as they say it. And really that's no really reason for me to get angry over someone, whomever they may be telling me that I'm fat, or that I've gained weight. On a good note, I was going to have six small spoons of chocoloate----I just want to finish it and never buy it again----baby steps. A few spoons of chocolate, isn't going to hurt anything, especially sense I only have it during my period. I need to stop trying, and saying what I'm going to do, and just do it.

Everytime I think of being lazy and giving into my cravings (after my period has ended for the month) I have to remember all of the clothes that I want to fit into, including shoes, that I am sure will fit more comfortably once I lose all this weight that I need to lose. In my opinion, I feel like I have a lot to lose. Others will tell me, "oh you look fine the way you are." and then others will say, "You could lose some weight." But they don't give me a specific amount of weight to lose. For me I don't have a specific amount of weight I want to lose. I don't have a scale (Should get one) so hence I am going by the clothes I want to fit into, starting with the blue jeans, I can't fit into any of my blue jeans, and has become a sore point for me. So everytime I get a graving for a meal from Burgerking, or any other fast food place, or graving for candy and chips, and pepsi----any kind of junk food, whether it's cheap junk food or expensive junk food, I have to remember what I really want. Do I really want to have that cheese burger, or that bag of chips, or those Gummie bears, or do I want to get closer to fitting into my blue jeans again? That's the question. I am giving up some foods to be able to fit into the clothes I have been wanting to wear for a long time. When I get back on the treadmill and back to working out. I'm not going to give up and stop working out at the first sign of tiredness, for example if I'm going to be going on the treadmill for twenty minutes every single day---after my period, and I start to feel tired ten minutes into the workout, I'm not just going to stop and call it a day. No, I'm going to push myself to complete the full twenty minutes, and then do other workouts afterwards. Logically if I'm going to be working out a total of thirty minutes every single day, and pushing myself, so that my workouts mean something, why do I want to go and sabotage all of my hard work and go and eat junk food. And even if I work out before having the junk food, which I never do. So it's best that I don't have them at all.

I notice that I always tend to over eat a day or two after my period starts and then I go back to eating normallly. I know that I should be starving, at least that's how I feel, because that's how I lost weight last time. But then I got to the point of "I can't do this anymore" I can't starve myself, be bitchy to everyone, and sleep all day long. I have things I need to do. And then to think of the damage that does to your body, so now I am working on correcting that. I'm working on getting back on track. And then staying on track. I can start out with eating healthy----during and after my period, and working out on a daily bases after my period, I like to take a break after my period. And then of course I have to remember not to eat so much, either way.

I have been doing well when it comes to eating. I am not over eating--excpet when I get my period, especially the day after, because, by the second day I'm starving, because I can't eat anything on the first day. And then I do better the following days. I still haven't gotten into the habit of working out during my period. I probably should, in the long run it will help me to lose weight. I know this, but I just like to give myself a week break during my period, and then workout, for three to four full, weeks, after my period has ended. Because sometimes the next one comes three, or sometime four weeks, and rarely after five weeks. But that is a rarety. I have a whole lot of clothes that I really want to fit into. I open my closet everyday and wish that I could fit into. It only makes me want to work harder at losing weight. And stop completely giving into any cravings for junk food that I may have.