I went on my treadmill for a total of sixty minutes, I stopped every ten minutes and lost a total of 216 calories at a speed of 7.7. i wasn't going to go on the treadmill, sense i don't usually go on the treadmill during certain times of the month, but this time, i changed my mind, and decided that i would go on for an hour, so before i went on the treadmill, i had three cups of black coffee, which gave me enough energy for me to stay on the treadmill. before that i threw up, i had a tiny panic attack, where in my mind i beleived that my food was posioned---even though i am the one who prepared my food, it's crazy i know, and if i tell anyone this, they are going to think that i am crazy for thinking that, and whomever stumbles upon this blog is probably going to think that i'm crazy for thinking that. in my defense, i had just sprayed the kitchen, and even though everything was covered, i was convinced that something got onto the food, or the utentisals, even though, i checked everything out, before i actually sat down and ate, but yet, i still felt that way, and ended up throwing away the rest of the food. yesterday, was the first day, that i went into a panic attack, and made myself sick. i am very obessed with my weight, and how my body looks, i think i always look fat no matter what.